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Rainy Day Shower Indulgence

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It's a rainy day. I love weather like this. And I thought, how better to to celebrate it than to use the current favourite shower products I have now? I always save these for special occasions, like when I'm feeling extra stressed out, or like today - when the weather's especially fine. Bearing in mind the expiry dates, of course. 


Okay I just took a moment to gaze out of the window. Why can't we have weather like that more often? No scorching sun, and you can feel a slight (cooling) breeze. There was even the sound and smell of rain and soft rumbling thunder (very rare in Singapore, in my opinion)! Which was when I decided to take a shower. It might seem to you, reader, that I'm exaggerating. But the sound and smell of rain, with the scent of this shower gel (which I am running out of and have no plans to buy it because it's 39 dollars and money doesn't grow on trees), is PERFECT. I closed my eyes, made some effort to imagine myself in a rainforest - you k…

The Influencer Obsession.

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Question: Why do influencers wannabes like to follow random people?

Answer: They want to notify other humans of their existence, in hopes of a follow-back. And then they unfollow. So it seems like they are the echelons of the social media world. The greatest achievement in the world!


I've been getting the random follow here and there for quite a while now. Sometimes, I check out their profiles and find that... they're just boring. No wonder they need to painstakingly follow people/buy bots to follow people haha. Because there's no way they'll get noticed organically.


Look at this Instagram influencer, for example. How do you find 300 to follow? I follow 550 interesting people, and that took me YEARS to find all of them.

Boring or not is subjective - but some of these "influencers" seem to have no personality or depth. Pretty hair and photos are a dime a dozen. And most of these #randomfollow influencers (argh, whoever invented this word?) are so one-dimension…

My Wisdom Teeth Extraction Experience

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HEY IT'S FINALLY HAPPENED. I GOT MY (BLASTED) WISDOM TEETH REMOVED! GOD RIDDANCE TO THOSE SADISTIC PRICKS. 
(P.S. Alliteration is intentional). 


And if you're the panicky type like me, you probably shouldn't continue reading. Don't say I didn't warn you!

It seems like I can worry about everything possible. If there's ever a reality show called "Extreme Paranoia" or "Extreme Hypochondria", let me know. I'll audition for a role. Pretty sure I'll get it.

In case you didn't know, I've been having problems with my impacted wisdom teeth for over 8 years. Tooth infections. They're usually quite painful, but not to the point of being unbearable because they happen once a year on average.

Last month though, it happened twice, and I somehow knew it was a sign that like it or not, I had to do something. Okay, fine. I was always told that I'll likely have to get them removed eventually, but there was never any need for immediate …

I Can Never Watch A Movie In One Sitting

And I don't know why! It's not like I have a short attention span, but I just get really, really sleepy after a while. Even if the movie's good.

Funny thing is, I never get sleepy when I watch movies in the cinema - only when I watch it on my television set (you'll be surprised at how many movie DVDs are available in the library for loan - major blockbusters included.

I just feel my eyelids getting increasingly heavier, and soon, I start being unable to concentrate because I'm just so... sleepy! I'm not sure if it's because I'm straining my eyes watching a small screen, or I just feel so safe (remember my paranoia about  serial killers in the theatre?), or the subconscious realisation that I can pause or rewind the film if I fall asleep in the theatre.

My sister (whom I share a TV with) was annoying me yesterday, so I threatened her with "Stop it or I'll watch two movies at one go and you can't watch!!". And she, thoroughly unimpresse…

The Lunchtime Dilemma

I was feeling quite productive today and my wisdom tooth infection was pretty much out of the way, AND I wanted to have lunch outside the the office today.
Thought I'd go to the nearby Indian/western cafe for lunch. The food's good, place smells incredible, and everything is priced reasonably. But I went a bit later,  so my oh my,  it was too crowded for comfort. As awesome as the place smelled, I made the decision to head somewhere else. And come back at like.. 12 pm sharp later this week.
Reviewed all my choices (as many choices as I can get in this area) and went somewhere else for lunch - somewhere I could get a seat. Decided to vet a cup of tea too and asked for iced tea (it's hot in Singapore hey). And did I look horrified at the $2.20 price or what (I probably did, and I even wanted to change my order but was embarrassed too) because the guy at the counter suddenly said, 
"Or would like hot tea? We have a promotion now - it's $1!"
I said yes very ver…

The Cake That Never Got Eaten

And it was a mighty luscious cake, I must add.

So last Friday afternoon, I bought a small piece of cake - a new Lychee one that my colleague bought for us to try. It's so.... light, mouss-ey and whip-creamy (yes no such words but I don't care HAHA). I was so excited to bring it home to celebrate the end of the week!

AND THEN I FORGOT TO TAKE IT HOME. 

I only remembered when I was on the way home, and was too lazy to walk back to get it. In case you are wondering, I'm one of the lucky ones whose office is within walking distance - about 25 minutes from my home. I was already about 10 - 15 minutes into my journey... So as excited as I was... I was so tired that day (what's new?) that I decided to just leave it till Monday.

Over the weekend, I had my second wisdom tooth infection attack in a month, but that's a story for another day. I'll tell you though, that the discomfort (and perhaps antibiotics too) made me feel a bit slow and woozy in the morning. So instead…

I can't even write one sentence without doubting myself

Like how I wrote the title of this post, for instance. Oh, it's too long - something is wrong with it... I suck... Such a long headline is just plain wrong...

Okay you know what? While long headline are not ideal, this is my own space, and I should learn to just go with the flow of what I genuinely feel. And not self-edit until my thoughts are beyond recognition.

These days just haven't been easy for me. I find myself questioning every word I write, mutilating every sentence I write - to the point of what seems like obsession. And it's getting in the way of my productivity. Nothing I write seems right. For every word I write - I imagine 10 people thinking and saying different things about it. It's draining all my confidence away. And this makes my writing a a lot worse, not to mention slow, because I'm always editing editing editing what I've already written, thinking that it isn't good enough. And the more I worry, the more mistakes I make.

And I try so hard…

New Lipstick Made Me Happier

Sometimes, happiness is as simple as this. Lipstick.

And if you find this statement bimbotic, here's your cue to stop reading, because yes, you got it - today, I'm dedicating an entire blog post to lipstick, and I have this nasty ailment called the First World Problem Disease. Admittance is the first step to recovery, they say. But I've no intention of recovering because I love a good lippie and that's that.

But the rest of you... Girls, boys, or whoever wears lipstick. Have you ever had that feeling, when things in life are not going so good, and you just gotta have a little perk-me-up? Well that's what I did.

We all have our weaknesses. Some people love gadgets, some like watches, others, spa indulgences, and so much more. For myself, I've always had a thing for makeup, even though I don't wear much these days. Oh, the hours I've spent in Sephora (most of the time just gazing longingly at makeup that I love but can't find the heart to spend on)..…

Butthurt People on Social Media

So.. It's 2 pm now - and I'm writing from my room, in the sizzling afternoon heat of the good ol' Singapore weather. Which doesn't always have a positive effect on my mood, because really... who loves the heat?

Anyway, an encounter last Friday gave me inspiration to return here. To my blog, I mean.While I'm not sure how long it'll last, I'm gonna give my best in creating personal content that I'm proud of!

The thing is, nothing much is happening in my life. It's just you know... work..  home... the occasional dinner with friends... hardly the Instagrammer kinda life that's so popular these days. But hey, there are so many things to talk about actually. Little things that may be trivial, but nevertheless, noticed by me.

Like how there isn't a post-meal tray-return policy at the Jollibee in my office building, but I've only ever seen clear tables. For the benefit of those who aren't aware of the tray return concept, here in Singapore, e…

Hello! Need Some Direction In Life.

Recently, I've been feeling like my life is in a mess. Which is actually quite a silly thing to say, because people around me (not people I know personally) are fighting worse monsters in their lives. Which sometimes makes me feel like I have no right to be upset over things that are happening in my life.

I try to be positive, yes. It's not too difficult, but it's not easy as well.

I have this ongoing thing in my life.  It's going in... I'm not sure if it's even moving. But long story short, there is something I really, really want. And everything seems impossible. I don't know where to start to make it right. Or if it's even possible in the first place. It's quite painful sometimes, how I managed to get myself (and someone else) into this situation. The most painful part about all this is that someone else got implicated in this. I mean, I can take the shit, but the thought that someone else (one of the best people in the world) got involved, that…

Perfume

I've always had a thing (but no excess moolah) for perfume. Tried Gucci Flora out at a shop and now I can't stop sniffing myself hahaha. And they really should sell smaller and cheaper bottles because I always get bored of the scents halfway through! Not that I've owned many in my life ha. Mmmmmmmm can I save this smell somehow.

Subjectivity

I wish I have the power to read minds. Like seriously. Also, I really wish I can go back to studying for a while. Or forever. But money doesn't grow on trees. Don't know what to do with life.

Do you believe in prayers?

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I've never been a particularly sappy person, but things have changed recently. Neither have I been particularly religious but well.. I can't explain either.

Anyway (and yes, I can't believe I'm saying this because this is SO not me), a few minutes ago I was sending a desperate plea to heaven about something that was really, really close to my heart. I've never wanted so much for one person before (because I was always a selfish spoilt brat haha). It took almost 30 years for someone to make me want to change this trait.

I've been feeling really powerless these days. And I also hate myself for not being to achieve some things (not work-related)...

Anyway, I was praying (it feels really weird to be saying this) just now. And this song was played on radio the next minute. It's a motherly love song sung by Tarzan's gorilla adoptive mother, but I can see it from another angle - not the death one, but something that I've been going through for almost two yea…

Time does not heal all wounds.

It's been a year of ups and downs. Mostly up, but there's one "down" that I feel like I will never forget or forgive myself for. I still feel like zombie sometimes -- like all my drive and motivation has been sucked out and everything just... Vanished. And I feel like I can't get out of it. I've always bounced bad from adversities rather easily, but this time, I feel like I'll never be OK. And as much as I want to change, I simply don't have the faith anymore. Plus other factors are controlling me. It's so overwhelming sometimes and nobody understands. And my household is so controlling that my cousin is the only person in the world who understands it and understands how I feel - because she's seen it happen. It's so sad sometimes. Well just one time. I've always accepted that my life was like that... Until B. And then I only wanted one thing in my life. Other things, people could stop me, imprison me and I'd be fine (ren ming haha…

Being Good / Not Good Enough

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Working as a writer (it's the same for every job, I guess) has its rewarding moments. However, it can get really discouraging sometimes too. I put in a lot of effort in everything I do, so it's a wonderful feeling when I receive positive feedback like "OMG I LOVE IT". But sometimes... I just can't get something that everyone loves, and it can really put a damper on my day.

Then again (uplifting in a way), I know I'm not alone. I've seen the most brilliant writers and YouTubers going through the same thing too — for example, this YouTuber once mentioned that he spent hours cycling for a video... And the client ended up not approving that video! But he didn't let it stop him from continuing to come up with more content.

Can't win em' all (no human can, not even someone as perfect as Emma Watson), but I wish I could! Must. Be. Positive.

And here's my inspiration playlist of the week.

Decluttered desktop. Now, ready to take on the world!

Hello!

It's been about three months since I was last here. Wow, has it really been THAT long?

Anyway, I just back-upped all my files, photos and videos, my previously almost 90%-filled desktop is now clear and very neatly organised. Fees soooooo good. I hope I can keep this up! A messy desktop is such a turn-off, and it always makes me not want to do any work on my laptop.

I guess that's why I'm back here - because woohoo, clean-looking start-up screen (for now at least).

And my next step.... I need to make it a habit to organise the photos and videos in my computer monthly at least. Perhaps by doing that, I'll get a little motivation to blog as well... Like a monthly update of what I've been up to.

Not that I've been doing anything extra special these days, blah.

But in my dreams, I'm a travel talkshow host!

Oh man the weather's getting warm again. I sooooo enjoyed the November to February period, where the weather in Singapore's the most pleasant.