Wednesday, December 17, 2014

:)

 Got a piece of good news, and I think my happiness radiates hahaha my colleague noticed lol lol. But nobody knows why and and I hope nobody will try to guess because goodness knows what bright ideas they will come up with haha. 

If you have a guess in mind, I can tell you that you're wrong. :D 

I hope this is the first step to success, I really do. *crosses fingers*

And I really do hate waiting + uncertain outcomes. Bleah.

- In a super good mood today and won't let anything get me down -

Brought my selfie-stick today. And did you know, there's a new and improved see life stuck now - with inbuilt remote. Arghh. From $12 to $3, and now, a new version. I shall wait for the new one to retail at $3 then HAHA.

Monday, December 15, 2014

真的很讨厌等

I know everybody has worked very hard to be where they are now but put in sooooo much looking and doing [insert everything that has to do with reaching my life goal] every day that there are some times that I feel like just going '"Forget it". Of course that feeling subsides in a few hours, haha but that few hours are a bit awful. Especially if you don't know if you'll really reach it.

You know, I never really stopped trying so I usually get what I want. But I don't know. Trying this hard for the next 50 years? Maybe things don't come easily to everyone. Maybe things do. Maybe I'm the only one who needs to work extra hard. Or maybe I only think I'm working extra hard to achieve what I want.

I don't know. Will I get there someday? It's like climbing a loooooong flight of stairs blindfolded, and not knowing when it's going to end. Like, am I in a shopping centre or Swissotel? Lol. Or if it will ever end. Or if I faint or collapse on the way up. Or WORSE, miss a footing and roll down the stairs !@#$%. HA this 'roll down the stairs part', I know only too well. But I always make sure I climb up faster and steadier than I would have so it's ok I STILL WIN *shakes fist*.

I also hate it when I see pretty dresses I can't wear. But whatever it's never going to happen. I will find better long-sleeved ones. Then it will be my personal style that makes me stand out. Like my glasses. HMPH. Like, oh, "defeat" is a word? No, it's not a real word because I am very powerful and I have just decided to scrap it off the dictionary HAHA (okay I know I'm being childish here).

Anyway, since Beauty and the Geek Australia Season 6 ended, I've started to watch Chinese Idol. It's soooooooooo good. And Adam Lambert made a special guest appearance!YouTube playlist of the night:
 


And Ji De Ai.
 

Monday, November 24, 2014

MDS – Everything for the Working Girl's Wardrobe

Question of the day: How much time do you spend on Zalora on each visit?
HA I don't even dare to think about it because it's going to be a phenomenal number, and I could have probably spent the time on... revision instead of panicking the week before exams. Then again... who can resist? :P

Anyway.... Singapore's beloved home-grown brand, MDS is now available on Zalora!


Let me walk you through some of my favourites. Because it's 11.30pm on a Sunday, all I can think of are my outfits for the week... so here you go!


Bullets & Dim Dress – Perfect for days where you can't decide what to wear.
This is I love about dresses. Woke up late and don't know what to wear? Not in the mood to put an outfit together? Oh well, we all have off-days. Throw on a dress, match it with a pretty pair of shoes, and you're good to go! Nobody will ever guess.
 
 
 

Bare Back Lace Top – Laidback with some va-va-voom
Ahhh. The sweltering heat on this sunny little island getting to you? This is will make a perfect weekend outfit. If you're thinking of wearing this on a workday, remember to dress smart! Blazer, jacket (maybe a camisole underneath?)...and when the clock strikes 6, shrug it off and woohoo... time for Happy Hour with the girls!


 

Brighten up your day with the Posh Skirting Dress
We know, work can get just a little boring sometimes, but hey we all gotta eat (and buy more clothes :P). So why don't you buy a little something to reward yourself for all your hard work? It's fully justifiable too, because bright colours are known to be mood lifters!

                                                                 
 

More of a skirt person? No problem! The Bandage Skirt hugs your curves in all the right places, and it's not too short for work as well.
 
 

Rapunzel's Pleated A-Line Skirt
Then again, that might be too tight for comfort (whether in your own eyes or to the people you work with – because ya know, the office is like a catwalk). This pretty midi skirt will save you from the abyss of self-consciousness.

 
 

Volcanic Plates Dress – Your Classic LBD with a touch of fun
What would we do without our Little Black Dresses? This one comes with a pop of colour at the back. Classy and
fun, how about that?
 
 


Of course, MDS Collections isn't only limited to office apparel, they're lotsssss more, check out the Zalora-MDS site for more pretty clothes!

*photos courtesy of ZALORA SG

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Sometimes I want to stop reading the news

This week, I've lost count of how many children have died from child abuse. I don't know how some people have the hearts to do such horrible things to a fellow human being, or more specifically,   their own flesh and blood. I mean, what wrong can a toddler do. Try to get your attention? Try to be sweet so that you will love them more? Because they're 2 years old and they don't have anyone else? It's not like they can go out to look for friends.

AND THEN YOU HIT HIM WITH A FRYING PAN. Most people I know are terrified of not being good-enough parents. I say if you're scared, you have the makings of a good parent. But some parents seem to be hell-bent on being awful parents. Or in this case, homicidal ones. ARGHHHH and this must be happening so much, behind closed doors.

The rape culture in UVA the Rolling Stones published had me fuming as well.

What has become of humanity?  

I think it's happening again.

Sometimes I forget what I always say about not letting myself feel to happy. Because every time I do, things just seem to... fall apart. How did it come to this? Earlier this year I was feeling so happy and accomplished. A sudden turn of events, and now, all I feel is failure.

The end of last year was not a good one for me. And then suddenly wow everything changed, and it was like I got transported to fairyland. And then I waited months and months for something bad to happen... nothing did.
But of course, these things don't creep up on you. They SPRING up on you. Stupid me, right? After all this time... I should have known better.

You know some rough patches are temporary and make you a better person? Some are also quite...  detrimental. I don't know which one this is, but please. Make it the former. Argh. I really really want to be somebody brilliant or at least, reasonably successful. I know positivity is the key but there are times that I really doubt myself.

I always felt that part of the reason we're born is to collect accomplishments - not just academically or corporately, but also spiritually etc. I'm well past a quarter of my life and I think I'm so way behind that it's a bit disconcerting. Maybe I have yet (though I thought I did) to find my place in the world - or maybe there is just something wrong with me that I have to fix first.

But who can help? It's not like I can expect God to talk to me in my sleep or something. Or how Harry had a life mentor like Dumbledore (Sorry, just had to squeeze in a Harry Potter reference, haha) I am really afraid of leaving this world without achieving something I can be proud of.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Stay Positive

Song of the day:  


If you've been following me, you'll realise that when I start talking in lyrics, I'm starting to catch a bug. The negativity bug. Bah. Have never had a strong immunity against this particular strain of bug. The only plus point is now I recognise the warning signs so maybe I can do something about it.

Like, running away.

Okay I'm kidding. I think.

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Being Taken For a Ride

Is really no fun at all. Being taken for MANY rides is even worse.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot these days and...

Honestly, my worst fear isn't cats, bugs, or disgusting food. My worst fear is growing older to be jaded and having nothing to live for (except to fulfil basic physiological needs like food and hydration). And not being able to get out of that rut. Or worse, not being able to summon the drive/determination to get out of it. 

Because like I mentioned, that is just very sad. We're all here for a reason, be it a tiny or major contribution to the world (mine confirm tiny lol but I will make do). Life is short and as I'm able to type this - you know that I, likewise with most people around me, have the resources to go further, to pursue my dreams. And if we don't thank our lucky stars then we should read more rags-to-success stories and reflect on our the sheer audacity of our ungratefulness.

I am so afraid that one day I'll just get tired, jaded and just stop trying. I've seen people like this, and everyday, even the POSSIBILITY of turning out like this TERRIFIES me. 

What if I live the rest of my life with no meaning, shrouded in negativity and bitterness, just waiting for my time to be up?

Song of the Day. And not just today because you know how girls in club hear a song and they're like "OMG THAT'S MY SONG. MY SONG!!!"  This is how I'm like when I'm having difficulty with schoolwork or a write-up. Haha.

(I actually don't know if girls really do that - this is what I learnt from "10 Types of Clubbers" YouTube Video. Lol. 我很not happening 的).


 

Saturday, November 8, 2014

The Folly of My Youth

Did you know, even if you take your old blog posts down like, eons ago...

Oh of course you do. We're all supposed to know that once something is posted online, there's no retracting it. I found some old photos from one of my very cringe-inducing blogs -.-. Don't know what came over me last time.


This are just some very roughly-anyhow-afewseconds version of how I WANTED to look. Not that it's not nice lah - there are people who are naturally thin like this and they are perfect the way they are. It's just that right now, it's how... unrealistic my expectations were that bugs me. And also the reasons behind wanting to be skinny -.-

And fortunately, back then, the Internet community wasn't as brutal as it is now. I think I got quite a few nice, concerned-filled comments from people I didn't know in real life. HAH. Those were the days.

Oh, and  look at the phone. That's how old these photos are.

Moral of the story? Don't upload photos - ever. Because what seems right to you now, may have you wanted to punch yourself 10 years down the road.

Nah I'm kidding. If we don't make mistakes, we're not learning, right?

Since you've made it till here.... here are some more photos I dug up *chortles*

Lol lol I was a such rebel. Hair almost touch the collar already still dare to take official photo.
 
 
This is me at the beach... with an umbrella. I think this was taken in... 2010 or maybe even 2009? I'm still using this umbrella! $13.90 well spent. Haha.
 
 
Taken at the Graffiti Café. 因为我们很喜欢冒险. Nah, patrons were actually encouraged to draw on the tables. I don't know why we had such a kick doing it. Hahaha.
 
 
In 2008 I wore clothes like this. And I was very proud of it. Everybody remembers how I went around announcing "EH STRAWBERRY LEH!!! GOT STRAWBERRY CLIP SOMEMORE." 有一点点不要脸 哈哈。And now, I will show this to people who keep saying 其实你应该染头发 leh. Not that I don't want lah! I spent am agonising 4 years growing these out okay.
 
2008. My first time cycling without guidance or somebody supporting the handlebars. I think a bit unglam but hey, it's a milestone! :P
 
Selfies are in fashion now. But look! I was one of the pioneers of The Selfie! And as usual lah got people try to spoil my photo. *red grumpy face* #thisiswhatfriendsarefor
 
 
Oh guess which one is me! The one who's waist deep in the water! See I so brave :D
 

Nothing very memorable about this photo. Except that this was taken in 2010, so it's been almost 5years that I have been having Green Tea+ Strawberry Ice-Cream almost every time I go Orchard. Okay do not think about the calories. DO NOT THINK ABOUT THE CALORIES.
 

Ahhhh 想当年。


My 21st Birthday!

 Disclaimer: The shirt was a gift from a friend. HAHAHA *SHY* Though in school I used to announce all the time that I am nice and shy and cute lah :X I don't know how people tahan me last time. Thank you ah.

我越想越觉得以前真的很不要脸。 哈哈哈。受不了自己!
 
I actually don't quite remember taking this picture. I mean, if I did it would have definitely been a profile pic because that period of time... satisfactory photos were difficult to come by?
 
 
This one lol lol. I know it looks horrible lah. But I was attempting to do some social experiment report thing. Then after that I bth and I took it down. I don't know why it's still online wtf. SO ugly.
I think if I wear this now, nobody will want to be seen with me. Haha. Again, look at the phone to see how old this photo is. :D

 
Okay that's all for now. Later I go to XXXX website dig out more photos.
 
 

Monday, October 20, 2014

Hi Again!

am so tired! From what? From choosing 9 pieces of clothing items I won in a contest :P won a hamper and that was one of the prizes, yay! :D

This evening, I managed to get my favourite seat on the bus even when I was like, the 15th person to board! I really like that seat because it's so... Away from the crowd. Which means no farts/burps/scratching/sweet-sucking and all the noises which make claw my way out of the window and jump out of a moving vehicle RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE EXPRESSWAY. It is horrible to be allergic to noise, okay. Especially never-ending ones. Sometimes I feel awful for being so gor tak, but I really don't get the Suck Sweet Vigourously And Make The Loud Smacking Noise Thing lah. Does it enhance the eating experience or what?

I am going to write a food review now because I enjoy it and I happen to have inspiration now! Tata! 

Today I received photos from the pro photographer and I think WAH ok *find a corner to hide*. Like, why does my broccoli look like a giant caterpillar? And what state of mind was I in to take a pic of the mussel's back view? Hahaha. 

And this is what happens when you tell your friend "help me take photo ok? Just keep clicking ah thanks! Hopefully there'll be a good one out of 50 photos. "


So I learnt that my "oops" face looks like this. Mental note to self: never be caught by surprise coz this is another Double Chin Fiasco lol lol. 

Food of the day:


I don't know why but I'm now on the scallop/crabmeat/lobster craze. And I tried to take the kind of photos where people lift the spaghetti up and you can see the vapour and poof! My Scallop Laksa Pasta magically became Vegetarian Mee Goreng!

Dessert! My ultimate weakness haha.


Okay here are some of the standard selfies to show my friendly side. I'm sorry I have Sleeping Bitchface Syndrome haha. But you see lah. My nose and double chin are significantly larger when I smile *shudders*. AND I have big-small eyes.



And my photos always look the same. I need to be more creative. ahh


 
 
 
 
Don't know what I was doing with my hands but I like my smile here haha. Anyway, these are what I call "warming up pics". It's when you ask your friend to take a few test shots to try out the lighting and angles. And then you just give some random smile. Okay I don't know why I'm explaining this.
 
 


 




 
 
Reason: Refer to Blog Name.


Very... artistic ah. Haha. Hey, you never know okay.


 
 
This one also artistic ah. I do wish it was in focus though. Looks like it could have turned out satisfactory. Haha.

 
 






 
 
 You know, it's not that I've never tried. But fun fact: I think I don't even have ONE proper jump shot.
 
And of course, there's gonnna be photos like this: