Monday, December 30, 2013

GOODBYE, 2013

Hello! It's me (and my wordy blogpost) again!

I was just fantasising about Something That Is Never Gonna Happen. Of course, I don't expect you to give one percent of a hoot, so I shan't bore you. You're welcome. :)

Don't really have a reason for blogging, but I feel very happy today. I don't know how long it's going to last so I should really pen my thoughts now :D

I'm feel so happy today, and if it lasts till tomorrow, I feel like I'll be greeting everyone in the life tomorrow with ultra-enthusiastic HI's. People will be wondering what came over me because I'm positioning myself as The Stoic One. HAHA. That is the best defence mechanism I can think of now lol.

While Fantasising About The Impossible, I also made myself list down some realistic things to hope for (BTW, "Hope For" and "Work On" are different. My "work on" list... still workin' on it. Haha.)

Come 2014, I really hope to meet people who like me for me. I don't want to have to pretend to be somebody else just to please people, or shut people up. I won't ask for everything to be perfect, but I hope to meet more nice people, and less obnoxious ones. I hope to be able to trust people more. I hope to have a reason to trust. I hope to make as little mistakes a possible, because heaven knows, I can't stand making mistakes, but I STILL DO (DARN, DARN, DARN).

I wish for less uncertainties. And okay lah, I also promise to work on being more flexible. Haha.

I hope to find my place in the world. Honestly, I think I may have found it, but it's early days yet, so maybe it's too soon to say. But I really think it's about time. Because you see, I usually have to fail/face setbacks a couple of times to get a perfect fit for anything. And I really think, this time, I was hit with more then usual.

Well that's all! I hit the worst patch in my lifetime ever (so far) this year, but I know, I know my luck is a-changing this 2014! And I'll never be complacent again gahhhh. Dear Rough Patch, thank you for visiting me. HAHA you didn't ruin me. Even though for a while, I thought you did. Instead, you made me a better, stronger person, and it's really too bad if you are disappointed. Hehe. :)
 

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Merry (Belated) Christmas!


And here's a photo of me trying to make a fashion statement with comfy hotel slippers. I had so much fun on Christmas Eve! Well, in our opinion, it was fun. Anything is fun with good company. Except clubbing lol lol because I am boring like that. Haha. Eating, gossiping, and (that goes without saying) taking photos! 

I have a feeling, somewhere down the road, people are going to ridicule my friends and I for the hundred and one photos (and selfies). But hey, photos are like time capsules, and there's nothing wrong with retaining memories! :D 

Imagine looking at this photo at the ripe old age of 80:



I mean, look at photos like this. That two
Bimbos behind. TSK HAHAHA. And btw I just got feedback that makeup or not, I look the same. Which is why I'm contemplating going sans makeup and getting 25 more minutes of sleep everyday! :D





And this. I laughed for an entire minute when I received it. 


Of course, mascots are not spared from Selfie Season.


Here's the view from one of the windows. There was a fit guy getting out of the pool and wrapping a towel around himself before this haha. Sorry girls, scenery before eye candy, because it's not everyday I get to go on a staycation! Then again, it's not everyday I get to see hotties HAHA. What was I thinking? Oh right I like the geeky, sunshine boy type. Hahahah. 


And another window.


The bathroom's really posh, but we were too busy to get good 360degree photos/videos haha. LOOK THERE'S A BATHTUB! Oh, and mirrors everywhere. 



I was going to take a photo with the caption "HELLO GOOD MORNING JUST WOKE UP" when nobody was around and then my friend came out of the bathroom and caught me trying to find my best angle. Oops. 


Oh yeah the beds are sooooo comfy! I felt like staying there all day lol. We all squealed when I (gotta take credit for this) discovered the brilliant view behind the green stripes! 



They even have a duckie for the bathtub haha. And it makes squeaking noises, they tried. HAHAHA. 



I look like this in the morning lol lol check out my big-small eyes!


I used to feel like bawling my eyes out when I couldn't decide on what to wear. When my makeup was slightly out of place, I felt like it was the end of the world. That was like a different lifetime! Now that that chapter is closed, I am sorry that I am bombarding you with #nomakeup photos. HAHAA NAH ACTUALLY I'M NOT SORRY. I KNOW I look alright. 

Most of my photos are in my camera, but I don't know if I'll be uploading them (you might have realised that I almost never upload photos of my friends)! 

I'm actually in bed, blogging from my phone. I'd better go before I fall asleep and drop my phone on my face haha okay bye! :D

And here's a 1am snap of my face!




And since you've been so nice to read till the end, let me tell you a little secret. I took these photos to make sure that I didn't get crossed-eyed from typing without my glasses. 

And you know what? I just realised that I need to get out of bed to switch the lights off. RAWRRRRRRR.

Goodnight! Or morning, to be exact. Hope your Saturday was great, and Sunday, terrific! :) 

Oh I forgot to tell you. The Singapore Flyer is lovely at night. 

And here's our supper. The only thing we could find at midnight and my oh my it was delishhhhhhh.


Goodnight for real! :)

Oh one more thing. I'd love to use this as my Facebook profile picture. But since age is catching up with me... I think the first one would be a better choice? What do you think?





Thursday, December 26, 2013

Do you have quirks when it comes to food?

I do. And I never thought much of them until recently when I started going for lunch with new people! And it's embarrassing.

I like to order:
Prawn Mee without prawns (UNCLE/AUNTIE! HAY MEE MAI HAY!!)
Cockles Fried Kway Teow without cockles
Chendol without Red Beans

There are other weirder ones, but I can't (and won't, hahaha) think about them right now.
But then again, it's not like I'm ordering something like, Peanut Butter without peanuts. Actually, that DOES sound quite alright. HEH.

Sometimes, other customers in the queue will burst out in (polite) laughter and repeat my order HAHA.

Okay that's all bye!

Monday, December 23, 2013

You know what I wish for?

I love holidays and staycations, but packing and lugging my stuff around? Not so much. I know, I know. Greedy much? Haha :P

My friends and I managed to get a room at a posh hotel this Christmas Eve! Ever the kiasu one, imagine my yaya-papayaness when I managed to pack everyone into a small-ish gym bag! It's just for a night but man, I wish I could pack my entire home into my bag like Mary Poppins or Hermoine and bring it along with me!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, EVERYONE! :)
And can somebody please stop me from worrying so much? I keep thinking of worst-case scenarios. It is no fun being a worrywart but I can't help it GAHHHHHHH. You want to know what I'm worried about now? I'm worried that I can't figure out which belt looks best on me by tomorrow. A little part of me also worries that I'll get some foot wart from the previous occupant. HAHA. I know. You will have a very.... interesting life if you're my friend. I think I have the best imagination in the world. Sometimes I can just SEE my friends trying their best to maintain straight faces while I go on and on and on about my Very Traumatic Fears. Hahaha.

But it's not easy being my friend because almost all my friends went through the 'Why doesn't that girl talk?" phase HAHAHA. I do talk but like I told you, I'm a very paranoid person and I've built up exceedingly strong defence mechanisms. So if you're my friend then you should know that you are a good person, because you know, I'm almost never wrong. And I'm sorry that things were awkward at first, and I'm also sorry that I don't shut up now. Actually, not really. HAHAHA.

Okay that's enough blabbering for today.

Again, thank you for everything that has gone well today. I won't wish for more good things to happen to me, but I hope things stay somewhat the same for a looooooong time! :)

I wish for a smooth and full career path, my parents to be healthy, my friends to be happily married with cute babies I can terrorize HAHA. And these are the realistic ones. Of course there are many other things I wish for, like NO ILLNESSES, NO VICE, NO STARVING HUMANS, but unless I am Queen of The Galaxy, it's kinda difficult.

Do something nice this Christmas (even though you should try to do it every day) okay?

HA who am I kidding. Nobody reads past two paragraphs anymore Lazybonessss!

Sunday, December 22, 2013

OMG I am so boring hahaha

No photos and no particular theme whatsoever so my posts hahaha but it's not offensive in anyway, and I'M THE ONE READING IT so....

No photos too but that might change because YAY I've finally straightened my hair! At a promotional rate, and there is almost nothing better than saving some $$$, so... DOUBLE YAY!!

I was out shopping with a friend on Friday, and we were both surprised at how decisive I was. I guess is really different when you ask yourself questions like "Do I like this?" as opposed to "What would XXX say about this? What would XXX think about this?" So that chapter has closed. Shopping is not a excruciatingly stressful activity anymore. TRIPLE YAY!

Oh, last week I was on a boat. And you can see my hair too.

 



In case the view is distracting (which I totally understand - I mean, who I am to compete with THIS?)



Here's a plain, plain, shot of my face.


 
And... I won a digital camera!! It is so phenomenally pretty!! Hello Kitty + Pink = I Love.

 
I won a watch too =P


Oh, and last week, I dreamt that about Chord Overstreet and he was dancing topless. Which was kinda funny because I am not obsessed with him like I'm obsessed with... oh wait yeah I don't get obsessed with celebrities.
 
What I mean is I've never really fancied Chord Overstreet, with his six packs and all (I prefer the nerdy/geeky boy-next-door type, so I have no idea why he even entered my dreamland.  BUT. I DREAMT THAT I MET A WESTLIFE MEMBER!! I can't remember which one though! But I love them all because they bring back great childhood memories HAHAHA. Well tweenhood, perhaps.

Okay that's all! I just ended my Westlife YouTube Video spree and I'm going to sleep now! I'm a little afraid of going to sleep because I'm afraid that I'll wake up and find out that everything that's happened to me this month was just a dream. Or the usual case of The Jinx when something bad happens when I allow myself to be too happy. Oh well I had a good three weeks (except the times I overanalysed and mini-panicked over gestures of kindness). I actually think if I were to die tomorrow (touch wood, of course), I'll feel at peace and die a content soul. Thank you for my happy three weeks (so far), and please let this be an ongoing thing :D


 

Sunday, December 1, 2013

A new chapter of my life starts tomorrow

Hello.

It's the first day of my new job tomorrow, and I feel so... I don't even know how I feel. I hope I'm not alone, and having The First Day Jitters is the norm. Like, what if people hate me at first sight? It's not like I look sweet, cute, or approachable and I definitely don't have a smile that would make people instantly go OOOOOOH SHE'S A GOOD PERSON. What if nobody talks to me, or if people talk to me and I make a bad first impression, so bad that nobody talks to me again, ever?

How long will I take to settle in? What if I'm not as good as they thought/I hope to be? I know I'll take some time to settle in and I probably won't be like, The Employee of the Week on my first day, or even month, but I am dreading the transition period so.

This isn't even my first job, but I haven't had a First Job in 4 years. I've had two other holiday jobs in offices, so I don't suppose they count.

Today, I bought a Hunger Games Trilogy (and I'm feeling so I-can't-even-describe-it-now, I typed The Hungry Games hahaha) Box Set and when I unwrapped it, I realised that one of the books was damaged. Why. On the first day of December? ENOUGH ALREADY.

But then again, just like how "people only remember the bad things', good things have happened to me too. I won a some Kiehl's travel sized products, a Tarte Cosmetics Kit, and a pink Hello Kitty Digital Camera this week! And the second two were by luck. I hope these Good Luck signs outweigh that bad one!

Also, I hope people don't think I'm cold and unfriendly! These days, I'm not exactly shy, but my face and mouth structure gives off fierce vibes and I promise that is such a far cry from my personality! Sometimes I turn my webcam on when I'm doing my work and GOSH I SCARE MYSELF. I can't quite put a finger on what's wrong with my face. I mean, it's not like I can smile all the time - that would be weird.

You know, I think I realise why I caught the stomach flu and then missed my exams. Or I'm making up reasons for it. Both ways, I benefit, and maybe the extra year I "incurred" would serve as a reminder throughout the year for me. You know what? I'll insist now that this is a lesson. Must as well make the most of it.

 I wish I'm as funny, witty and likeable as Ellen DeGeneres ahhhhh. I have and will do my best, and I guess a little luck won't hurt! And of course I won't be one of those people who get branded as 'pretentious' because they try too hard.

Okay bye, I'm going to practise my smile in the mirror. It's so unfair! Some mean people have very nice natural smiles! And my teeth are so small that I look strained when I smile alshdlHKJHSDWUUW.

But then again, the security guards and receptionists seemed friendly enough, and people aren't usually friendly to unapproachable looking people, right?

Friday, November 29, 2013

Drastic Haircuts, Never Again.

I've never realised how many mirrors an average shopper comes across every hour until yesterday when I was out shopping with a friend and came across like, a trillion mirrors. Oh boy. My hair. And it's not like I can rebond it now because it's at that annoying stage where it'll curl at the collarbone.

And just to set the record straight - if you're a new reader, the recent blog entries don't really reflect what I'm like usually.

Like, yesterday I was Christmas shopping and for some reason I didn't buy what I intended to and headed to another shopping destination. And then I was in that state of mind where I just HAD TO GET IT because NOTHING MUST GO WRONG, so I rushed back before closing.

And when I saw that they weren't on the shelves anymore, I almost lost it. Which thinking back, is pretty amusing. My friend didn't think so, she was shocked.

The most frustrating thing is that when I'm feeling lousy (and I don't remember EVER feeling lousy- maybe that's why), nobody ever takes me seriously because they think I'm kidding.

I've never had buck luck that I can remember, and I think this month's going to be on my mind for at least a year. Anyway, now that everything is over (I hope), I think well I can handle stuff on my own. And most people I know can jolly well handle their own problems too. I ain't gonna be the fairy godmother who sprinkles magical "make people see the light and feel better" dust all the time.

And ooooh I'm going to trim my forest of eyebrows tomorrow morning, yay! And I just watched 2 Narnia movies in one sitting. And uncountable Ellen Show YouTube Videos. I swear, those are addictive, especially those with emotion-charged giveaways and kids! OMG I LOVE WATCHING ELLEN SO SO SO MUCH AND every time someone asks Who's your favourite celebrity, she's usually the first to come to mind! I've loved watching her show since I was like, 16 and she had long-ish hair and okay I'll stop gushing now.

Just won 2 contests this week so perhaps it's a sign of better things to come! And Monday will be my first day at my new job, I hope to be one of the most brilliant writers they've ever had! :D
 

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

What Makes Me Happy

Well so it's been pretty obvious that I haven't been in the best of moods recently. And you know what always makes me feel better? "Thank you + smile". I am very desperate for smiles from strangers, I know hahaha.

Today, I was at IKEA and the doormat that I am, one of my favourite parts of going to IKEA is opening doors for people who carry lotsssss of stuff.

So I was just about to enter the building,  and that couple could have (albeit not so easily) managed by themselves but I was like ' I HAVE TO GET A SMILE AND THANK YOU TODAY!!!"

And I did. It was so easy!! :D
Ooh, it happened (unintentionally) again when I left the building. DOUBLE JOY HOHO.

Anyway, here're some random shots of my life.


Popsicle for you? And what's best about this is that I can make whatever flavour I fancy - from fruit juice to Ribena to Milo, and if you like, plain water.





I won a contest! I've always loved Kiehl's products but they've always been out of my wallet's range. And lucky me, I chanced upon a contest called the Ultimate Loyalist Contest. Obviously I wasn't really the 'Ultimate Loyalist" because the winner had like, hundreds of dollars worth of Kiehl's in her vanity shelf. I won the consolation prize though! :D


 
 
You know how I love soft toys, but never bought them because I wanna save money? I've been 'visiting' these two regularly for MONTHS, and sadly.... People bought them. I hope you find good homes :(
 

 
 
But it's ok! I found new cuties to visit!! :D


 
 
Some time this month, I managed to stomach all of these. Am I cool or what.


 
 
Let me end this post with how much I miss my long hair okay bye.

 

Oh, I woke from a lovely dream today. Awesome warm bubbly feeling. I know it's never going to happen in real life, so I hope I get more dreams like this! I don't want to sound like a discontented prick, but can I have this dream like this at least once a week? Hahaha.  :)

When you're down and out, you've got only one direction in life. UP.
 

 

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Hello again!

Hi,

Here I am , writing another loooong loooooong essay. I don't know what's wrong with me these days. I feel like I am a failure at everything! And I loathe uncertainties. Oh, I hate waiting too. Still smarting over missing my exam and having to wait another 6 months (and if it fail that, it'll be an additional year). Then maybe I should just cease existing.

I think a lot of it is my fault also lah. I've always been so driven and disciplined, but I let myself relax that LITTLE bit, and this is what happens. I will never slack off again, even a little. Met up with J, the only person in a (somewhat) same situation as me and able to keep a level head, and I realised that maybe all these... all these happen for a reason.

I've always thought this 'everything happens for a reason' = stupid excuse for stupid people. But sometimes, things really happen for a reason. Like how I applied for a degree in Counselling and was rejected, and then offered this course that I love. :)

A few years ago, I got mixed up with some shallow and judgemental.. episodes, and there was this period of time I got disillusioned with life and thought my life goal was to be a counsellor/social worker/ something who travels around the world to help people. A place where nobody cared about weight, hair, clothes.... Of course I still want to do that - later in life, when I've equipped myself with more life experience. But I've always wanted to be a writer, and I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME THEN. Seriously. 19 years of sheltered life in the city, and I wanted to spend the rest of my life in some undeveloped countryside Making The World a Better Place. I think, if I was allowed to go on that track, I'd have been a burden to the team instead HAHAHA.

I don't know who left this comment. But thank you. Thank you so much. Not gonna let them darn setbacks win! You know it's like one of those Luke Skywalker vs. Darth Vader thing. Oh right. not everybody's a nerd like me. It's like Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. When Harry and You-Know-Who were duelling and their wands first met. And they were both trying their best to overcome the other. I AM GOING TO BE HARRY POTTER AND PUSH ALL THE SETBACKS BACK INTO THEIR BEHINDS.

I'm sorry I don't have anything nice to write about. You know, I'm the girl who people always whine to. Just because 'thank you! I feel so much better every time I talk to you! :D"

But when I need to whine, nobody likes to respond. Or don't know how to respond. Or are too busy with their own problems. Some will turn the conversation into how They Are The Most Unfortunate People In The World. Some make me feel worse. One even rubs it in and sometimes, I even suspect she gloats.
I was one of the first to enter the workforce because I chose to study + work. Back then, everybody talked about how school sucked, and how lucky people in the workforce (i.e. me) were. And when some graduated, it became a competition of Whose Life Sucks More. I bet the rest will be singing different tunes in the months ahead. But it's too bad. I'm too tired with my own problems to care about others'. And sometimes (and Karma is so going to get me for this), why should I?

Oh and dear Gloater. This is not a permanent thing. Gloat while you can. Hahaha. I mean if you really wanna be such a sociopath then it's your business lah.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

You Will Not Read This Post

Super wordy posts these days, but nobody reads this rubbish anyway so I'll just type like, anyhow. And not watch my grammar, tenses, whatever. I have a post about yet another adversity in my drafts, but not sure if I'm going to publish it. If you've been reading my blog you'd have realised that I've had quite a few (uncharacteristic) crying jags and a lot, a lot of feeling lost and hopeless.

I am really not a pessimistic person, but it seems like everything is going downhill this month. I don't know why everything is happening all at once, and I don't know if it'll persist, and if it does, I don't know how if I'll lose my mind or something. I push myself so, so much but it seems like I'll never be where I want to be. And then I continue pushing and yeah, here's where I am now - on the verge of giving up trying, because, hey, there're only so many blows one can take within a month.

I hope to be brilliant or special someday, but at the very least, I hope to be Not Lousy.

This month, I realised that trying too hard can make everything backfire and explode in my face. Just like how I stressed over my job, interviews, some other stuff, then stats exam (which always kills 1/2the cohort), and I was gunning for an A+ in another exam. And I get horrible nightmares when I get too stressed. The exam preparation.... all went down the drain. BECAUSE I GOT STOMACH FLU AND GASTRITIS. Which came along with fever and Niagara Falls-Worthy vomiting spells. I don't even get it. I've never gotten stomach flu. I refused to go out. It was like a freaking self-imposed house arrest AND I GOT STOMACH FLU ON SUCH AN IMPORTANT WEEK? How is that even possible?

I was watching How I Met Your Mother (again), and there was this episode about "Last Words". Sometimes I think about morbid things when I am depressed, and this is one of those times. There are a lot of things on my bucket list I haven't fulfilled. I'm not going to talk about my bucket list because well, if I don't fulfil them before passing on, it would be a terrible embarrassment.

But I can tell you about the things that I always fantasise about! I've always dreamt of going overseas! The reason I'm not saying 'travelling' is because 'travelling' seems like I wanna go to some faraway country on long haul flights, like Greece or USA or London, Paris or something. I am not greedy

One day, I will write a pretend blog about my adventures in places I've always wanted to go! Those are places my friends go (and always invite me but I can't go boohoo). I'm sure I can write very convincingly HAHAHA. I'll write about crazy shopping sprees in Bangkok, lazing on a clear, pristine beach in the Philippines, renting a nice villa with a private pool in Bali/Langkawi/Batam, OH and going there via FERRY!!! Maldives would be awesome too! And I am going to learn Photoshop so that I can kope their photos and overlay my photos hahahaha.

Sometimes I look at my friends' holiday photos a lot in hopes that I'll dream about them (the holiday destinations, not my friends, sorry :X) but it never happens!

I'm sorry I can't go to those places but dear friends if you read this and if I die before you, you can get my ashes and split them and scatter them in those places!! And then you can type R.I.P on Facebook (if Facebook still exists then) and feel very sincere! Korea and Japan is fine too!!

I guess that's all before I burst into tears.

I sincerely hope everybody else is doing well in life, and there will be more ups than downs for you!

I am going to cry

This Monday, I was suddenly plagued with something I've never experienced. Woke up with fever. And then I felt so horrible, even sleeping was a problem. And then I puked and oh my goodness I had no idea I could pack so much inside me. I swear, it was like Niagara Falls or something.

Tuesday? Well I guess I must have been alive on Tuesday, since I'm here typing. But I have no recollection Tuesday AT ALL.

Finally dragged myself to the doctor's today (Wednesday). I have no idea how I managed to walk there, but I did consider begging cyclists on the road to give me a lift to the clinic :X

Turned out to be stomach flu, and I've never had stomach flu. To make things worse, it later turned into gastritis pfffft. How could it not? I haven't been able to eat anything since Monday. I don't even know what I answered when my parents spoke to me because it was like my soul ran away or something.

YOU KNOW WHAT?
I ended up not turning up for exams today. I could hardly get out of bed. How was I supposed to take a 1 hour bus ride to school and then sit for exams? I've got A+ grades for all the assignments for this module. I worked so hard for this, and now I have to wait another YEAR to retake the exam. 
I pushed myself so hard for this and also the (bloody) stats exam. It's all I have been working on these two months - and I even refused to hang out with my friends! And then I got really stressed with my job search. Which could have been what got me sick and I think it's so unfair! :(

I'm now kicking myself because I COULD HAVE GONE TO THE DOCTOR STRAIGHTAWAY. And then recovered on Tuesday (if you can recover from stomach flu within a day, that is), and gone to school to take the exam today.

Sigh.... Now I'll have to graduate 6 months later. All the hard work for nothing.

Like I said, trial after trial after trial.
Not even a second of a breather. But like someone commented in my previous blog entry, I CAN'T LET THESE SETBACKS WIN.

Sometimes I think if it's because I am a bad person. But I have really, really tried my best to be a good person, can't I get a bit of credit for that?

All these hard work for nothing. I am so very tired and I wonder when I'll be truly happy.

And also... I won't be able to graduate with my friends!!!

On the bright side, I got a job I've been dreaming about since I was 12. Please, please let this go well because I don't think I can take any more setbacks!

Friday, November 15, 2013

Kids nowadays

Today, I saw a toddler operate a Kindle with so much swag, I almost melted in embarrassment. I have never once touched a Kindle, and it's been only a year since my first smartphone (which I won in a creative writing contest, yay!) 

And then I was looking at the mirror and mourning over my (former) long hair. But really, that's a mistake I HAD to make. It would be a mistake not to make that mistake because if I don't snip most of my hair off, I'll always be like "what if I did?" I lost you right there, didn't I? And that's already the summarised version. 

Oh and how do hair and lucky 21st Century kids relate? I was looking at my hair and I remembered how my friends, after graduating at 12 years old, my friends and I went through a "mass rebellion" by growing out out hair. We thought it was the coolest thing in the world. Actually, I still do. Hahaha.

If there's one school rule I'll never understand, it'll be the "long hair is prohibited" one. And before you say anything, "long hair" meant hair that touches your collar. Which, if you think about it, means that your hair has to be ABOVE the bottom of your ears.

I mean, I totally understand the importance of looking neat in your school
Uniform. But hair touching the collar was a bit too much, no? Some schools have the "just below the collar" rule. Anyway I guess long hair was seen as a frivolous "luxury", which was pretty ironic because my mother had to fork out $8 for each haircut (and so OFTEN because well, how much shorter can it go?). 

And nope, tying up my hair wasn't an option because only dancers were permitted to do that. Not that it was entirely bad because not many 7-year olds those days could handle long hair lah. No "3 Minute Fishtail Braid" YouTube Tutorials then hahaha. Just saying this in case people ask "cannot leave long hair and then tie up neatly meh?"

I was looking back for typos and HAHAHA. To answer your question, no I did not attend military school. Though we all had identical hairstyles hahaha. And think I'd have turned out tougher if I did. 

And I don't know the point of this post either. Haha. 

Thursday, November 7, 2013

I can't do this anymore

Test after test, trial after trial. 

Trials make you stronger. But when they come at you non-stop, it's so tiring. Not even a breather. If it was something I could control with my own effort and determination, I'll fight until I win. 

But who can fight against nature? 

I kinda know why villains with in superhero flicks move to the dark side now. 

But it's ok. Maybe I'm just atoning for my sins in my past life as an evil, evil person. And SHUT UP BECAUSE IF YOU KNEW THIS SECRET OF MINE YOU'LL BE SORRY YOU EVER ACCUSED ME OF WHINING.

I should work on stopping the cycle now but I am so, so tired, and all I want to do is just.... Forget that I exist. 

Monday, November 4, 2013

I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!! (And Drastic Haircut!)

Who would have thought it. HAHA.
But meeting more people has made me realise that people see me as a "people person".
I didn't realise it until somebody mentioned it outright. Then I gave a humble smile HAHAHA.

About time. I'm the late bloomer for everything but you know what? Better now than never! :D
I don't wanna complain too much about being a Late Bloomer because what if I become a Never Bloomer, right? If you get what I mean.

Anyway you know what? I was feeling really lousy last month so I  got my hairdresser Dylan to snip 4 inches of hair. He was a bit reluctant coz I've always been all "CUT A BIT ONLY PLEASEEEEE. Coz very heavy. RMB DON'T TOO SHORT AH!!! "

But I was so adamant, he had no choice and OMG MY HEAD HAS NEVER FELT SO.. LIGHT. If you've been reading my blog, you'll remember that I have 5 times as much hair as others. On the head I mean. I have no leg hair, and I don't know why.

OH HEY. NO LEG HAIR. That's something I like about myself!! I have one more thing on my list now, isn't life amazing! :D

Here's the first time I've had short hair since I was 18. I don't care if anyone doesn't like me because I LOVE IT AND IT'S MY HAIR. Oh look at how far I've come. Hahaha aren't you proud of me?


And I'll try to smile more next time, but you see, smiling makes my nose look larger. And you may have already guessed from my blog URL that I have Nose Issues. HAHA. But ok I'll smile more. Because I'm looking at the two expressions at the bottom, and I suddenly feel like punching myself.
 
Which smile do you like best? I like the one with teeth! :D


 

Thursday, October 24, 2013

My Ridiculous Secret Diet Blog

Not so secret anymore. And of course I didn't go through with it! As miserable as I was, I thank my lucky stars that I wasn't so far gone.

Sometimes I feel like I wasted a huge period of my life away. Other times, I feel like everything happens for a reason, and there must be, as unfathomable and seemingly stupid, a reason that I had to go through this.

And you know how completely bonkers I get when I see spelling/grammatical errors? It's ERRORS GALORE here! I feel like getting a red marker and making crosses and circles on my screen hahahhaha.

So.... Kids. Learn from me. Dieting makes your brain cloud up. You don't want that!

I was in THAT state where I couldn't even spell my name right LOL that's how far gone I was.
The spelling mistakes here are KILLING me. And seriously. Yogurt and one slide of honeydew?? What was I thinking?



Alarm Bells bring briiiiiiiing!!




 


I don't know what I was thinking. Feeling INVINCIBLE because I didn't eat? Lucky this diet thing only lasted for a bit (I am greedy like that, bwahahaha).

The thing about diets is that without professional guidance, they often backfire. And I can't say it enough, but all these sad rubbish about girls and self-image issues... they really need to stop.

I can read my blog entries from almost 2 years ago and laugh at myself. But I'm sure there are millions of girls around the world feeling as horrid and trapped as I did. And some of them pass the 'germs' on to girls around them and it becomes a freaking epidemic. This is a sad world. Whatever happened to the days Marilyn Monroe, absence of thigh gaps and all, was considered to be the most beautiful human in the world?

 

Sunday, October 20, 2013

MY NEIGHBOURS' KIDS P3

I was leaving my house yesterday and (YAY!!) one of the kids and his dad came home. I didn't even see them because I had my back facing them and suddenly I heard an enthusiastic HELLO!!!!

Then the little boy kept waving at me. :)

Even as I walked to he staircase! He only went inside when I left the floor.

THAT'S NOT ALL.
Later that evening, I came home and heard THREE squeaky voices screaming HELLOOOOO!!
And one of them walked  ran/toddled quickly to my door and held the railings and peered inside :):):)

UTTERLY ADORABLE.

And the older boy must have read a new book or watched a new television programme because he was like, "Bye guys!!!!" And then he thought for a bit, and said 'Bye Ladies!" (my sister was there too - she ran to the door when she heard their voices).

Such friendly kids omg so cuteeeeeeeeee.

Everybody loves babies, that's for sure. I just came home from the library, and just as I was leaving, there was a tiny little toddler talking a walk with his grandfather. And another middle-aged uncle (I thought he looked kinda fierce) saw that little boy and started to make funny faces and talk in baby language OMG hahahahaha that was so uncharacteristic.

Oh, and yesterday I was in a crowded mall, and a pair of twin toddlers literally stopped traffic. They were in their twin pram, both sucking on their pacifiers peacefully. (And I'd usually get pissed - but not this time, because awwwwwwwww) all the ladies who saw them immediately stopped in the middle of nowhere and bent down to coo and gush over them!! I bet they don't understand words yet BUT OMGGGGGG they were really adorable.

I know. I sound obsessed. HAHAHA. And yesterday one kept staring at me while I having tea at the cafĂ©. Sometimes when I smile back, they widen their eyes and give me toothless grins and start jumping around in their baby chairs. I should TOTALLY consider a career as a clown at kiddy parties.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

I wonder why people like me

Lil ol' me.
Boring. Kinda plain-looking.
And not very funny (except when I'm angry - and I don't even do that on purpose so that doesn't count)

You know, I seldom initiate meet-ups because I think who'd wanna spend time with me? I scared they paiseh to reject and then I don't want to corner them into doing something they don't want HAHAHA I'm such a thoughtful person.

Just now, my friend texted to ask why I've been MIA recently and then I was like *astonished expression* because WOW people actually NOTICE? So when she said "meet up soon! When you free?", I was secretly very surprised and happy but I suggested Friday very casually. HAHAHA. Because you know, Friday = after work = just dinner = a few hours. Less torture for them.

And I really don't know why she suggested Friday in the first place, but then she said "Saturday lah! Saturday better to camwhore leh coz makeup and dress nicer!!!" And then my jaw dropped coz I didn't expect anybody to wanna waste a weekend on me. Or take photos with me.  =X

Oh another thing.

You know I mentioned about going to the Print Centre to see the (magnificent) newspaper printing process? I didn't bother to ask anyone along because I thought everybody would be stuck in their offices. But then this girl I've been in the same class with a few times was there to and naturally, we had a common topic.
I will own a media empire someday! Watch out, Rupert Murdoch bwahahahha
 
Since we aren't supposed to upload (uber cool) pics/video of the printing process, here's a pic of me in the building of one of the biggest media giants in Singapore. Everybody was like "I've never been to SPH before!! HELP ME TAKE PHOTO!!" I decided to go with the flow even though I've been to all the SPH buildings. It was fun! Like taking a photo at the Eiffel Tower or Statue of Liberty! XD


Okay back to my newfound friend! I thought she was just being civil coz seriously, if I saw me on the street, I wouldn't want to be my friend. She was like "can I sit beside you? I sit ah!" when half the bus was empty and then we ended up gossiping. And then we had dinner together and went to the computer lab to study. And then after that we exchanged numbers in case got to be in the same class in subsequent semesters (she asked, not me, DUH haha I scared ppl don't wanna give me number ;X). And we were like" AWWWW we have no common modules next semester?"

And when I got to class, someone asked me about my day. And then later class started, during break, this other girl who always sits beside me (again, who'd do that?) said "I wanna go buy food leh, go with me!"

I think yesterday was "Make Shu Rin Feel Less Like A Loser Day". Hahaha.
Can't believe I just typed an entire blog post about how pathetic I am. HAHAHA.

And I came home from school to find lots and lots and lots of Chewy Junior, and you can probably guess that I loooooooove Chew Junior just by looking at my overexcited face.
 


I never knew it's so fun to be likable! Oh well, more like I forgot maybe. Because I spent 4 years as a pathetic closed-up mouse and OMG I LOVE THIS FEELING.
 
I GOTTA FEELING I'M GONNA HAVE A GREAT 2014!!!! :D:D

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Happy Birthday to meeee

Another year of being average yay! I should get an award for being the most ordinary person in the world!!!

And you know what? I was slaving over my Film Art assignment (yes I have a happening life). Had to Google something and then I saw search engine in cake form.



So I was like "wow what a coincidence, today's some special cake day? Did the Birthday Cake get invented on the 13th October or what?"  So I hovered over the page and then it said "Happy Birthday Shu!" What a pleasant surprise! :D:D Like I said, I've got no life. HAHAHAHA.

ANDDDDD if I may.....

 

I wonder how I'd react if Ellen DeGeneres wished me a happy birthday HAHA. I think I'll be the 20+ version of Sophia Grace.

And here is a pic of how I look like when I'm slaving over assignments. Like a brat HAHAHA. Tomorrow... I'll be going to the print centre to see the entire newspaper printing process! So exciting (for me, at least), can't wait!!
 :D

 
 
And just for kicks, here's a pic of me trying to wink. Okay, okay. Actually, I was trying to do the dancing eyebrow thing. Point is,  I have no idea how people manage to do things like that.
 
                                                  

Oh, and do you have this fear of people trying to guess your age? I do. Because if people tell me something like "ohhhh I think you're 30!"... I will faint. I WILL FAINT.

 

Monday, October 7, 2013

LOST COUNT OF HOW MANY I KILLED TONIGHT

Beetles, that is.

So here I am midnight, watching 'Psycho', armed with my own choice of weapons - fly swatter and Baygon Spray. If you didn't already know, Psycho is a horror/suspense film by Alfred Hitchcock. Which make me feel all the more murderous. 




Those darn beetles REALLY don't have any sense of boundaries! And I swear, those little things have VERY SHARP minds of their own. They only show up when I'm alone. And I kid you not, they CHARGE at me. Just me :( And I'm certain they aren't blind. Because as soon as my dad arrives, they go and hide. And my dad will be like 'WHAT INSECT???? There's nothing! Don't tell me you made me miss the most exciting part of NCIS for this!!!"

Sometimes when I'm feeling brave and am all "COME AT ME, BITCH!!!", they refuse to come out too (cowards! bullies!). And when I finally forget about them...


CHARGEEEEEEE

PIACKKKKKKKK

POOOOOOOCKKKKKKK

Giving me the shock of my life, and I always have to remember to be careful with my laptop, water, and phone. Coz it's not like I can make those darn beetles PAY.

And they bump around like my room is an inflatable trampoline. Funny how they seem to love to charge AT MY FACE. Cheeky imps.

Too bad I'm not afraid of them anymore (took me long enough!) and there are two dead beetles under my bed now HOHOHO. That'll teach them to not attack me AND ONLY ME! :D:D








5 minutes  into writing this...........






Oh I can officially proclaim that I don't fear those PESKY STALKERS anymore. But I might have woken up all my family members in the process. Because a 3rd beetle came and I was SO OVERWHELMINGLY ANGRY.

I dropped everything I was doing (literally, which is why I'll need to clear the loose pencils and pieces of paper after relating my ORDEAL) cornered it, smacked it repeatedly, as hard as I could and (I only realised it now, screamed f***k you while hitting it like a lunatic :X)

And then my dad, awakened by the din,  came to my room, calmly picked the dead beetles up, and then.... just as calmly, caught a new one by simply reaching into the air.


But really, I've improved, ok? Because I used give my room up to them and sleep in the balcony.

I have actually lost count of how the death count today. I think it was 4. Or 5.

Blood was shed, and a warrior was born. YOURS TRULY. HAHAHA.

All the excitement has got me exhausted. Shall have an early night today :)

And 4 beetles in a day? It's too much. IT'S A CONSPIRACY AND I REALLY HATE THEM!Huge fuzzy creepy things who keep going for the ATTACK.

 
 

Thursday, October 3, 2013

If Violence Wasn't Illegal

Poor Little Animals :(
I just watched a video (it was 20 minutes long but who the hell can sit through the full video?) of 3 girls kicking and stepping on a puppy and it was yapping away pitifully. I've read the news about girls using stilettos to step on rabbits - but they were either paid or forced to. No demand, no supply. So I would like the money-grubbers and psychopaths to vacate themselves from Earth.


Poor Little Kids :(
Have you seen children begging on the streets in the less developed parts of the world? Do you really believe there are so many blind or limbless orphans in the world? No, obviously they were stolen and blinded/maimed.


Forced Prostitution
Again, no demand, no supply. Some men who visit prostitutes who are OBVIOUSLY being coerced. Seriously, how the FUCK are you able to enjoy yourself knowing that this woman who was possibly snatched from her family is never going home, and is likely to die from abuse, diseases, or drug overdose?


Rape
OH AND RAPISTS. How much of a loser can you get, if you have to wait around in some dark corner hoping to get some? Oh, maybe you like the idea of control and power. But damn you. Don't try it on some innocent girl because a frigging rape is going to change her whole life. HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF CRAIGSLIST AND THOSE RAPE FANTASY ROLEPLAY THINGS OR DOES THE HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDERS NOT WORK?!?!


Acid Throwers
Why don't you douse yourself in acid and see how you like it?

War
Because people should be working together to kill those who should die (sorry if this offends you but I firmly believe that some people really need to die in order to make the world a better place) instead.


Bullies.
Less bullies = less depression = less suicide. But then again, a lot of bullies have issues that's why they're such assholes, so perhaps that can be saved so I don't wish for them to die.


SWINDLERS
Cheat old people's life savings very fun is it. When you old I cheat yours (and donate to charity) you see you like anot.
I especially hate people who try to cheat their own friends' money oh that FRIGGIN happened to me but unlike that bitch, I was too much of a non-loser,  and I saw right through her stupid 'grand' office with even more stupid Animal Head motifs and BMW-Driving people walking around with secret handshakes and muttering cult-ish mantras. Sorry ah. My (pathetic amount of) money not to easy to bluff.


China Wine
Watching 'China Wine' on YouTube makes me angry too. I'm obviously not the only one because wow wow wow , 83% dislikes!!!!


As you can see, I'm in one of my rare foul moods. And while I apparently have this rare magical ability to make people feel better or See The Light (HA I should have my own talkshow), I can't do the same for myself. Anyway I have decided to stop giving a crap because it's becoming a Thing that people expect me to make them to solve their problems but are too busy counting marbles to do the same for me. And it will be better coz HELLO less pessimistic vibes!

The puppy thing was what really set me off.  Why are there so many evil people in the world and why are they still alive? They should not be allowed to exist.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

When girls say "A lot of guys are after me"

 So... know any girls like this? I'm guessing probably you do, because this post got more likes on Instagram than usual.
Have you realised, really popular girls never say something like this? If you're hot, you're hot. Everybody knows without you making grand announcements.
 
And this tweet isn't insulting the nice girls so if you don't get the joke then please go away.
 

I think it's so funny coz an image of BitchFace and her uber thick makeup immediately popped into my mind!

  I remember how she loved to relate very detailed accounts about men ("even ang mohs you know") trying to pick her up. And she has to fend a whole army of them off like Gerard

Butler in 300 because she's married (sooo sooo draining you know haiyo!!). She even "complained" about men who continued their advances even after knowing that she's married hahaha hmmm......

*Pssst I think she is secretly pleased whaddaya think*

And every single time, I refused to say stuff I'd tell people whom I like. Stuff like:

"Aiyah coz you're good-looking mah!"

or

"Hahaha you look really young, that's why people are assume you aren't married!"

Simply because I know she is very insecure and thus, super desperate for assurance. Now, I am very good at making people (except myself) feel better about themselves (so I've heard from multiple sources *shy*) but THIS Beeeetch ain't getting any therapy from me muahahaha.

But to her credit, I did think she was pretty when I first met her (because everyone who doesn't have my face is pretty, duh) but when I pointed her out to my friends and they gave the 'wtf' looks so maybe not. Hahaha. Maybe its the makeup because I kinda think she has to stock up every 2-3 weeks - wow what a pricey investment.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

One Good Turn Deserves Another

I know that isn't true in real life, but I just like to dream.
On the bus watching people kick/trip over this stick and wondering how long it'd take for someone to move it aside #didnthappen #stupidhumans #sodifficultmeh

I've got this habit of picking up plastic or pieces of paper on the street because I'm afraid that if I don't, somebody will slip and fall. Sometimes when I do that, people will tell me "Why did you do that? It's not like anybody else will do the same. Nobody cares."

But you know, when I think back to the times I've done little things like that and I'm thinking.... I could have saved a life haahaha!  Like... what if I didn't pick up that plastic bag and a cute little old lady stepped on it, fell backwards, and hit her head? :(

But my friends/family are right. NOBODY IS AS STUPID AS ME. Because 90% of the world are so freaking self-centred. They won't do sh*t to help others, but when sh*t happens to them they complain till the cows, pigs, giraffes, and polar bears come home.

But you know what? I still choose to be stupid because 10% of decent humans still give me hope and I don't mind doing things if there's a chance that it will help them. So the 90% of the self-centred idiots are just very tapping on the 10%'s good deserves. Cheapskate leeches. Hahaha.

Every now and then I am half-inclined to stop giving a crap. But then somebody will do little nice things like helping me with heavy doors with big smiles and then I'll be like, 'awwwww so nice ok lah I'll be nice too!"

I WILL BE THE BIGGER PERSON. Because if I am selfish to selfish idiots, the cycle will continue for sure. But if I am nice (albeit reluctantly), maybe they will gradually become nice too and it will spread!

Hahaha who am I kidding.

Anyway,  they are not worth thinking about, that's why I'm thinking of the good people in my life instead!!! Come to think of it, as much as the suckiest part of life is having to depend on others sometimes, I have a lot of people who like me and I like them back. So thank you :)

And the picking up trash thing is just an example, the only thing I can think of right now. Hey, I never said I was anything better than average, right? I don't know why I am such an insignificant human being but at least I am not totally useless. The only thing I can do to help the world is to pick up trash but well THERE IS NO GOOD DEED TOO SMALL and if it makes ME happy then it's my business. Ever heard of the butterfly effect?

Oh, I'm wondering how many selfish idiots slipped on plastic bags today. And I hope my friends and all the nice people in the world have sweet dreams tonight every night!! ^^

There are times I wanna become rich and powerful and be only nice to nice people and when selfish people beg for help I'll be like "Oh please!"
Especially people with very vixen-ish eyes hmphhhh.

Monday, September 23, 2013

How to say Goodbye to Bullies

Bullies. Ah. I've never gotten as far as being bullied, but intimidated and put down, yes,

But you know what?

Nowadays I'm caring less and less and less.

And you know why?

I HAVE BEEN ENLIGHTENED.

Look at the people who always seem to have it in for everyone. The bullies, the people who try to make you feel back about yourself, intimidate you, put you down...

YOU KNOW WHAT THEY ALL HAVE IN COMMON?

ALL THEIR LIVES.... SUCK!!!!!


I've met a few. I. a.k.a pushover, always let them get the better of me, but now that I sit down and think about it... I think they deserve my pity instead. Yes, pity, not sympathy.

 Look closer, and you'll realise that there is a certain aspect(s) of their lives that suck(s) more than regular people. Bad marriages, relationships, self-esteem, self-image, many things.

And if you let them win, you are stupid like I was.

But you know what you can do? I'm not going to say something adults love to say "OH JUST IGNORE THEM!". Obviously those adults live in fairyland, because asking someone to pretend not to see a bully is like asking tweens to pretend not to notice 1 Direction in their school cafeteria.

BUT... You can PRETEND to ignore bullies. Be as happy as you can, or at least pretend to. And  They'll get tired of @#$%^ing, and pretty soon there won't be a need to pretend! :D

Not that I am pretending to be happy because woohooo, I don't think I've ever felt this good for a long looooooooong time!!! If you are trying to put me down than I'll just assume that you are jealous of my uber-awesome life hohohohoho :D
 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Lucky oh I'm so Lucky

LUCKY
So you know for the first time in 4 years I've been 'free-er' than usual. This Saturday there was a free giveaway for some branded clutch for the first 800 readers of a female magazine and GUESS WHO WENT?!?!?!

I haven't had the time to take a good pic yet but here's a quick shot (it really looks a lot better in real life)



Me, duh. And it's such a pretty clutch! Genuine leather, too, smells absolutely divine (though I am really very sorry if any animals were hurt, ok). And I only had to queue for less than 30 minutes because it was a working day. Anyway, I was far from bored because the women/girls around me were very chatty. It's funny how easily people can make friends when they common topics haha.

And I said I was lucky becauseeeeeeeeeee. Okay you see, there were 4 colours and I really really liked the fuchsia one. But the clutches were given out randomly so I only had a 25% chance of getting one so I was like... awwwwww not so lucky one lah.

BUT YES SO LUCKY!!!! :D:D:D



LUCKY LUCKY
Oh and the second thing. I'm studying Film Art this semester. Which obviously means I'll need to analyse some films. And the very, very kiasu person I am, I just HAD to get the films and watch them over and over and over again. I could get them from the library, but the loan period's just two weeks. The films I was looking for are really old so I really didn't expect to have an easy time purchasing one.

BUT GUESS WHO GOT LUCKY AGAIN? :D
I don't know how and when and why, but I just.... got them. And cheap. I don't want to bore you with explanations, but THE ODDS ARE LIKE 1 OUT OF 1000. Because it's not like we get to study easy obtainable films like The Hunger Games or Harry Potter.



LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY
I finally got the payment for my write-ups that I have been (to put it politely) 'following up with' for so long that I almost gave up. :D



LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY
I've been having problems thinking about a thesis topic, and was feeling horrible because of the looming deadline. My mind was blank and I was feeling so very hopeless.

But The Bachelor may not be as brain-decaying as people say because......  I'M OFFICIALLY GIVEN THE GREEN LIGHT TO START ON A THESIS ON REALITY TV HELLO HOW COOL IS THAT. :D

I just hope I'm lucky enough to pass this because I really want to graduate as soon as possible :(



HOPEFULLY LUCKY TOO
So the deadline's next week, and since I've FINALLY got a topic to start on, I headed to the library to borrow some books. The books I need are scattered all over Singapore, and  I'd be wasting a lot of time if I travelled everywhere to get them But guess what, I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET THEM IN TWO DAYS BECAUSE THE SYSTEM WORKS LIKE THIS.

I really hope there won't be any hiccups because I want to get the best grade I can.


I don't know who I should thank, but thank you thank you thank you :)


 

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Stupid Things I do.

I was clearing stuff from all my SD Cards when I came across some photos. Last time I super bu yao lian hor hahaha. So many selfies and 80% of the time were from awkward angles. And then I couldn't bear to look at them, so I just put the cards aside and bought new ones for new photos.
 
At some point, I decided this should end or I'd end up with like, 50 SD cards, and an empty bank account. Thus the decision to grit my teeth and browse/sort out/delete photos. Turns out that it wasn't as bad as I thought.....And this lot is so funny so I thought I'd share hahahahaha.
 
GOSH what was I trying to do? I don't quite remember what came over me, was I trying to be like, cool or versatile or something? Because I usually prefer the act-cute-until-buyaolian pics. Btw these photos were taken in early 2011, one of the most... trying points of my life so I think I can be excused.
 


This is me giving a look of distaste haha. It is actually how I look  every time I see Bitchface complaining about her life on Facebook. AWWW I feel so sorry for her. NOT. Because as I'm typing this, she's probably victimising another poor girl. Or bitching very vindictively about how ugly Jessica Alba/Miranda Kerr/Dianna Agron/you get the point is. Or describing some poor stranger's hair/clothes/whatever meanly. Or bitching about unmarried people. That woman really needs to get a life.
 
Looking back I think I did sound/write like a lunatic. I'll be very, very busy this month with schoolwork, but I'll be back to upload funny photos hahahahahah.

Till then, hope everyone's feeling fabulous, and if it's one thing I learnt from that horrible 3 years of horribly crushed self-image, it's never to let people who don't matter dictate your life. You know, sometimes people love putting others down because deep down, they are the saddest, loneliest, insecure people. Somehow, putting others down make them feel better. Now, we don't want to give awful people that, do we? Just let them go on and on and on and on make big fat fools of themselves. You just stay awesome!

Oh, and this is how I got that photo. From a random thumbnail. Hope I'm getting a bit better at speaking and articulating myself because IT'S GOING TO BE 2014 SOON!
 

 
Ok bye for real now!! Anyway, in case anyone's wondering, I think I'm (it's about time, huh?) over this being pressured by BitchFace situation thing. Because I bumped into a friend last week, and I recognised  the signs (that she was kinda going through what I was) and was able to offer advice when usually I'd have been like OMG WHY AM I EVEN ALIVE. WHY WAS I EVER BORN. I HATE MYSELF I WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING :(:(:(

Hahaha.

Friday, September 13, 2013

When Humans Like to See Other Humans Fall

Today, I got home to see this girl called Ah Ting trend on Twitter. And since that was totally untypical, my curiosity was piqued and WOW PEOPLE ARE SO HORRIBLY BRUTAL NOWADAYS.

Is that a sick new form of entertainment or what?

So this 13 year old girl sent some you-know-what photos of herself to her boyfriend, and you-know-the-drill, the little twat sent it out. But what follows is just... sad. And really. Make cyber-bullying a crime already!!!

Sometimes that makes me wish that social media never existed (coming from me the Instagram Addict).  I see GIRLS circulating the photos, and poking fun at the victim. Seriously. I kid you not, those little girls are actually having fun seeing another girl fall. And when asked to remove their tweets by the non-sadistic humans, you will not believe their smart-ass answers. They should be ASHAMED of themselves. Let's just say if any kid of mine were to speak like that, she is going to TAKE IT ALL BACK and never utter such bullcrap again.

I think the victim's only problem was trusting the wrong person. And notice when I said 'problem' and not 'fault'. And if you're saying "She's 13! She should have known!!".......

Well, let me tell you now,  some douches can be pretty convincing charmers. Hey, even nice girls can be victims too. I mean, even if you're with your husband, who's to say that something like that won't happen? You could have a decent, Mr Nice Guy husband everybody THINKS is nice. But oh the moment things go downhill... He could transform into The Biggest Nightmare You Have Ever Had. And with your guard down... Well, the closer you are, the more you have to lose.

So, it kind of boils down to luck, and I don't know if it'll work for you like it works for me but, these days, not trusting no one is better than trusting the wrong one.

With every nude picture (usually of pretty girls, I wonder why) comes the slut-shaming. "Slut" this, "slut" that. By the way, little girls should learn to use the dictionary. "Slut" and 'Exhibitionist" have different definitions.

Heck, if I had a reasonable nice body, I would do it! I just wouldn't like to send it to anyone. When you're 70 (poor memory and all), don't you think there's a possibility that you wanna look how young and beautiful you once were? I mean, even Rose from Titanic (fictional as she was) did it. But oh well I can barely look at myself in the mirror so I probably won't get into trouble for naked selfies.

When humans go berserk like that, there is no stopping them. The only thing that makes me feel better is the word 'Karma'. I'm no saint myself (but I do try to be nice), that all evil doings have to be paid for.

This girl is going to  grow up and learn from her mistakes (the hard way, of course) and the other girls are going to grow up and... Actually, I don't even want to know what kind of people they'll grow up to be, being as sadistic as they are now in their prepubescent years.

Maybe something's gonna happen to them someday. When sh*t befalls them, and they'll be like oh boo hoo hoo why am I so unlucky? Why can't people be more compassionate? But life's like this. Nobody ever cares about anything, AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T HAPPEN TO THEM.

That said, why are girls always on the losing end? Why can guys go topless and girls can't? And why are private parts supposed to be "private" or "offensive"?  Who/what brought this about? Because if not, then there'll be significantly less trauma in the world. I mean, humans will still try to hurt each other, but at least they'll be deprived of one less hurt factor. Boo hoo for the sadistic brutes then.

Stay classy, people. There are other things to do besides gloating over other people's misfortunes.